Inā ʻaʻole moeʻuhane ke keiki ...

Me he mea lā me ka hope loa o kona ikaika, hāʻule ihola ʻo Hanna i luna o kahi noho, lawe aʻela i kahi pūʻolo hainaka mai kāna ʻeke a ʻī maila:

“Ua make koʻu makuahine i ka maʻi kanesa ʻōpū. Loaʻa iaʻu nā hōʻailona like. Makaʻu wau.

Ua wehe au i nā kāleka, me ka manaʻo e hiki iaʻu ke hōʻoluʻolu iki iā ia. ʻO ka laha Tarot, ʻo ia hoʻi, ʻo ka Ace of Wands, ka mahina a me ka VIII o nā pahi kaua.

ʻAʻole, ʻaʻole ia ka maʻi kanesa! Hāpai ʻoe. He ʻoiaʻiʻo i ka pilikia o ka hāpai ʻana a hiki i ka hopena caesarean, akā e hānau maikaʻi ʻia ka pēpē, wahi aʻu me ka ʻoluʻolu.

"Akā ... ʻaʻole hiki iaʻu ke loaʻa nā keiki," ʻōlelo ʻo ia.

"Akā naʻe, e lawe ʻoe iā lākou. Hoʻokahi mea ʻo ia. E ke keiki, wahi a'u.

No ka ʻoiaʻiʻo, ua lawe au i ʻekolu mau kāleka hou mai ka papa. Ua hōʻoia lākou i nā ʻike mua, akā ʻaʻole i hoʻoulu i ka manaʻo. He paʻakikī a kaumaha ka noho makuahine. Ua pilikia hoʻi au i ka manaʻo ʻaʻole hiki i ka wahine ke hilinaʻi i kāna hoa.

He aha kaʻu i hana ai ma kēia kūlana? E aʻo iā Hanna e pili ana i ka hāpai ʻana? Aia ʻo ia i loko. No ka hoʻolaha ʻana e pili koke ana ʻo ia i kona hopena? A ʻo wai ka mea hiki ke hōʻoiaʻiʻo ʻaʻole e alakaʻi kēlā wānana i ka pōʻino o ka pilina me kāna kāne a me kāna keiki? ... No laila ua hoʻoikaika wale wau ʻaʻole pono e hilinaʻi nui i kāna kāne, no ka mea hiki iā ia ke lilo i mea hōʻeha nui iā ia. i ka wā e hiki mai ana - a ua hoʻoholo wau e kali i nā hanana. 

ʻAʻole au makemake i ke keiki

ʻEono mahina ma hope mai, noho hou ʻo Hanna i koʻu keʻena a ʻōlelo ʻo ia me ka lulu ʻana i kona mau manamana lima:

- I kekahi mau lā ma hope o ka kipa ʻana iā ʻoe, ua ʻike wau ua loaʻa iaʻu kahi pathology o ka hāpai ʻana. Hele mai kaʻu kāne i kēlā me kēia lā. Lawe mai ʻo ia i nā meaʻai, hahau i kona mau lima, honi iā ​​ia. Ua hōʻoia ʻo ia ua hauʻoli ʻo ia a ua manaʻo ʻo ia me he makuakāne lā. Akā ua hoʻomau wau i ka uē… No ke aha? No ka mea, ua manaʻo ʻia e hānau ʻia ʻo Toto, ʻaʻole wau i makemake e lilo i makuahine. Ma hope o nā mea a pau, ʻaʻole pono nā kānaka a pau e hana hou. Akā, ʻaʻohe ala e hiki ai iaʻu ke haʻi iā Adamu e makemake wau e lawe i kāna keiki. A i ʻole e kali i ke ʻano e hana i kāna hana a hāʻule. ʻO ka hopena, no ke aloha i kaʻu kāne, ua ʻae au e hoʻōla iaʻu iho.

Aia wau i ka ʻehiku o koʻu mahina. Ke manaʻo nei au he kipi. Ke kūʻē nei kekahi mea i koʻu makemake, a ʻoiai ke kūʻē nui ʻana, pono wau e hoʻomanawanui i nā hopena. ʻAʻole hiki iaʻu ke haʻi i kekahi i ke ʻano o nā mea. Ua ho'āʻo wau e kamaʻilio me koʻu kaikuahine a haʻalele koke wau i ka hoʻoponopono i kona mau maka. He aha ka hana?

A laila, manaʻo wau e hui ʻo ia me kahi lāʻau lapaʻau e loiloi ʻole i ka ʻano o ka mea maʻi, akā e kōkua iā ia e hoʻokō i ka pilikia. ʻO nā pilikia o Hana i kēia manawa mai ka wā kamaliʻi mai, e pili ana i ke ola makua o kēlā me kēia kanaka - a me kona mau pilikia me kona makuakāne.

ʻAʻole ʻae ka Pope iā Khanka. He anu, he mana. Ua hoʻopaʻi ʻo ia no nā mea lapuwale. I loko o ka manaʻo o ka wahine, ua paʻi ʻia kahi ʻano like: He mea ʻole wau, a he mea hoʻoweliweli kēlā me kēia kāne iaʻu. Ua hoʻoili ʻia kēia makaʻu lōʻihi i ka wahine a pili maoli i ka manaʻo i ke keiki.

ʻO ka mea pōʻino, ua hōʻoia ʻia nā diagnostics tarot. ʻAʻole maopopo iaʻu ke kumu ʻaʻole ʻo ia i ʻike i kahi psychologist. ʻAʻohe kānalua ua manaʻo ʻo ia e hiki iā ia ke hana. Akā, ma hope o ka hānau ʻana o ka pēpē, ʻaʻole i loaʻa iā ia ke kākoʻo.

ʻAʻole hiki iaʻu ke aloha iā iaʻAʻole maopopo ʻo ʻAdamu i ka pilikia o kāna wahine. Ua kapa ʻo ia i ka postpartum depression he mea hana wahine. Ua hoʻopiʻi ʻo ia iā ia no ka nele o ka hoʻokō, akā ʻaʻole ʻo ia e hana me kahi makuahine ʻōpio. Ma waho aʻe, ʻaʻole i like kaʻu keiki me ka ʻoliʻoli a me ka ʻakaʻaka. Ua hopohopo ʻo ia a ua uē ʻo ia i ka pō a pau. Ua pau ka hoihoi o ka makua kāne hou. Ua hoʻoholo ʻo ia ʻaʻole leʻaleʻa ka loaʻa ʻana o nā keiki. Ua hoʻomaka ʻo ia e holo i ka hana, e hālāwai me nā hoa hana, a malia paha e holo maoli ʻo ia.

"ʻOiaʻiʻo, ʻo wau wale nō ʻo Antek. A minamina au iā ia no ka mea ʻaʻole hiki iaʻu ke aloha iā ia. ʻAʻole hiki iaʻu ke kōkua iā ia," i uē ai ʻo ia i ka huakaʻi aʻe.

Ua hoʻolaha ʻo Kalo i ka hemo ʻana. I kēia manawa, ua alakaʻi ʻia ka haʻalulu o ka ʻohana i nā mea maikaʻi. Ua ʻike ʻia ka Empress i loko o ka ʻōnaehana, ʻo ia ka mea e ʻike ʻo Hana i kahi kanaka pumehana ma ke ala nāna e mālama i ke keiki.

Ua hiki no hoi keia. No ka loaʻa kālā hou ma hope o ka haʻalele ʻana o kāna kāne, ua hoʻolimalima ʻo Hannah i kahi lumi i kahi wahine XNUMX makahiki hoʻokahi i aloha i nā keiki. Ua lilo nā wāhine i hoaaloha. Ua emi iki ka makau o Hana. Ua ʻike ʻo ia aia kekahi ma kahi kokoke e kōkua i kēlā me kēia manawa.

Maria Bigoshevskaya